Inner Resistance

There’s a barrier within many of us. A huge brick wall which closes us off from the potential we might otherwise reach. I have it within me, that’s for sure. I’ve been thinking deeply about this issue and how to overcome it. I’ve had bouts of success in the past where I’ve effectively managed to go around, climb over, or burrow under the wall, but it never goes away. It’s always there, and it always feels like it’s insurmountable.

For me, I’ve been having a lot of trouble sitting down and working on Joy of Awareness. Even though intellectually I understand that I have huge gifts to offer the world, even though I’ve had many people contact me to thank me for the work I’ve been doing, even though I see the views on my articles and videos and the purchases of my books slowly going up, even so… I still feel the resistance. You know, that feeling that says that nothing I do will ever be good enough, let alone valuable. That I might as well just sit around and procrastinate some more, that there’s no use in trying to make something truly great in the world because it’ll never work anyway.

It’s so sad that this is what my inner voice tells me, but there it is. I don’t think I’m alone in this, and I think much of it is by design. There are forces out there that benefit hugely from a sedentary, obedient, predictable population, a population that doesn’t think for itself, that doesn’t find ways of making money for themselves but rather work night and day as a battery for the matrix, so to speak. I don’t want to get too much into this topic, but it’s alright to be aware of it. I’m trying my best not to dive too deep down that rabbit hole because I’m afraid I’ll get stuck in the darkness.

In any case, I’ve been working on a solution to this problem. I think I’ve found something that works. It’s known as “letting go”. I’m still just a novice at this meditation technique, but I’m already experiencing some huge shifts in the way I approach life. I still have a lot of work to do, but things are starting to seem more manageable.

I believe the way out of the blocking of human potential is through overcoming trauma and limiting beliefs, and this method does exactly that. It’s incredibly simple, too. Basically, you just have to feel the emotions. That’s it. Sounds super simple, but if you think about it, how many tools do you have in your arsenal of numbing yourself, of procrastinating, of distraction? If you’re like most people, you like to hide from life behind Netflix, YouTube, porn, alcohol, cigarettes, social media, gossip, sugar, and all kinds of other things. But what are we hiding from? We’re hiding from the deep, visceral emotions within us, the exact emotions that underly our limiting beliefs. The exact emotions that stop us from taking action on the things we want to accomplish. What if I told you that the only thing you need to do in order to break the cycle of procrastination and addiction is to feel the underlying, somatic sensations? What would that mean to you?

I think there are many people who will never break free from the bullshit. In fact, probably most people will continue to do what they’re told, allow the government to do their thinking for them, never questioning, never doubting, never wondering how high they could fly if they only tried.

However, if you’re here reading my content, I’m certain that you, like me, are destined for greatness. For divinity, for heaven on earth. There are many things that distinguish humans from animals, but the most important distinguishing feature is that we are conscious. We are aware. At least, most of us are. Those of us who choose to remain behind the veil of ignorance are no better than the cows in the field or the mouse in the garden. They have given up their humanity. Don’t be one of them.

Now, it’s one thing to actually think for yourself and see through the crap, but the next step is to figure out what’s been done to you and to heal yourself. For me, this meant coming to terms with all the poison I’d been convinced to take into my body since I was a child, taking full responsibility for my own health, and effectively purging the poison out of me through fasting and a simple diet. This was paramount for me to get to the next stage of healing. I managed to heal my body for the most part and find the health that I always dreamed of, but it took me a while to understand that this was only the beginning. There’s so much more to health. There’s so much more to being human. There’s no point in a healthy body if one doesn’t direct it to a higher purpose. My mind hasn’t been where I want it to be, but I’m working on that. There are deep scars, injuries, traumas, hidden way down in the depths of my body that I’m only just starting to work through. These are from childhood and from adulthood. It turns out that living life as a pariah for years on end, unable to work, socialize, or have fun, sick and getting sicker, it turns out that it actually leaves some scars on the psyche. Who knew?

It’s so important to take responsibility for EVERYTHING. I did so for my physical health when I overcame my eczema, allergies, and all the other chronic autoimmune issues that were weighing me down. However, I was still stuck in the vicious loop of victimhood and mental hang-ups. Thankfully I’m learning to take responsibility for those too. It took a while, that’s for sure. In my defence, I simply didn’t know that these things could be healed, or at least I didn’t understand how to do so. Now I have some ideas on how to move forward and I can’t wait to see the results.

My life is worthless if I don’t direct it towards my purpose. My health means nothing if I allow myself to waste my time and energy on stupid stuff. I’m going free, and you’re invited.

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